Letter from Caroline Adams, circa 15 January 1843

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to the comfort of her husband, this is the firss time in my life that I have had the least cause to think sutch a thing of him he has always bin to me a kind devoted prvious to my coming into this church my helth has bin poor he has never spard no expence nor pains to improve my helth or add to my comfort, I know what his maner of life has bin sins I have bin his wife and that has bin 11 years, in his business he has always had girls in his imploy somtimes 30 or mor and somtimes not more [than] 4 or 5 and he co[n]stantly with them, and girls to far superior to the one I have aluded to in this letter, and he has never bin the man to take the least liberty with them, he has never bin a previous to his going man that has bin particularly fond of female company I really <think> he has injoyed the society more man more than femails, and when he left home for deeply and keanly did I feal the los of his society he was the onley person on this erth that I could express my fealings to, <to> his keeping had <I> commited my happiness as it regards this world, and my only desire and prayr has bin that the Lord would make him a faithful Elder in his chirch and when I look back on what has pased in the last 2 weaks it appear like a horrid dream congered [conjured] up from the regions of darkness to hurry me to my grave and it all Dear Brother I cannot express my fealings but pray do not think I have writen to you with the least hard fealing toward my the Lord k[n]ows I have not, knowing is is your privaleg to inquire of the Lord and know for <a> certenty wheather <he> is gilty of what I suspect him or not has induced me to write to <you> fealing a[t] the same time that a certenty of his . . . . (I cannot write the word) cannot produce a worse state of fealing than I now experence, and if it is so he certinly is not a fit man to minister in the things of God for <has> has declaird that the Child is not his and says [p. 5]
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to the comfort of her husband, this is the firss time in my life that I have had the least cause to think sutch a thing of him he has always bin to me a kind devoted prvious to my coming into this church my helth has bin poor he has never spard no expence nor pains to improve my helth or add to my comfort, I know what his maner of life has bin sins I have bin his wife and that has bin 11 years, in his business he has always had girls in his imploy somtimes 30 or mor and somtimes not more [than] 4 or 5 and he constantly with them, and girls to far superior to the one I have aluded to in this letter, and he has never bin the man to take the least liberty with them, he has never bin a man that has bin particularly fond of female company I really think he has injoyed the society man more than femails, and when he left home for deeply and keanly did I feal the los of his society he was the onley person on this erth that I could express my fealings to, to his keeping had I commited my happiness as it regards this world, and my only desire and prayr has bin that the Lord would make him a faithful Elder in his chirch and when I look back on what has pased in the last 2 weaks it appear like a horrid dream congered [conjured] up from the regions of darkness to hurry me to my grave Dear Brother I cannot express my fealings but pray do not think I have writen to you with the least hard fealing toward my the Lord knows I have not, knowing is is your privaleg to inquire of the Lord and know for a certenty wheather he is gilty of what I suspect him or not has induced me to write to you fealing at the same time that a certenty of his . . . . (I cannot write the word) cannot produce a worse state of fealing than I now experence, and if it is so he certinly is not a fit man to minister in the things of God for has has declaird that the Child is not his and says [p. 5]
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