Lucy Mack Smith, History, 1845

  • Source Note
  • Historical Introduction
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I strained my eyes, and I could discern a faint glimmer of the light that was beyond the gloom, which lay immediately before me. While thus contemplating upon death, my visitor left. Soon after which my came to my bed, and took me by the hand and said: “Oh ! my wife, my wife! you must die! The doctors have given you up; and all say you cannot live.” I then looked to the Lord, and begged and plead with him to spare my life, in order that I might bring up my children, and be a comfort to my . My mind during the whole night was much agitated: sometimes I contemplated heaven and heavenly things; then my thoughts would turn upon those of the earth— my babes, <​and​> my companion.
During the night I made a solemn covenant with God: that, if he would let me live, I would endeavor to serve him according to the best of my abilities. Shortly after this I heard a voice say to me: “Seek and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you— let your heart be comforted, ye believe in God, beleive also in me.”
In a few moments my mother came in, and, looking upon me, exclaimed: “, you are better.” My speech returning just at that instant, I replied; “yes, mother, the Lord will let me live, if I am faithful to the promise which I made him, to be a comfort to my mother, my, and my children.
I continued to gain strength until I became quite well, as to my bodily health; but my mind was considerably disquieted— it was wholly occupied upon the subject of religion. As soon as I was able I made all dilligence in endeavoring to find some one, who was capable of instructing me, more perfectly, in the way of life and salvation: as, [2 words illegible] Among others, I visited one Deacon Davis [p. 40]
I strained my eyes, and I could discern a faint glimmer of the light that was beyond the gloom, which lay immediately before me. While thus contemplating upon death, my visitor left. Soon after which my came to my bed, and took me by the hand and said: “Oh ! my wife, my wife! you must die! The doctors have given you up; and all say you cannot live.” I then looked to the Lord, and begged and plead with him to spare my life, in order that I might bring up my children, and be a comfort to my . My mind during the whole night was much agitated: sometimes I contemplated heaven and heavenly things; then my thoughts would turn upon those of the earth— my babes, and my companion.
During the night I made a solemn covenant with God: that, if he would let me live, I would endeavor to serve him according to the best of my abilities. Shortly after this I heard a voice say to me: “Seek and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you— let your heart be comforted, ye believe in God, beleive also in me.”
In a few moments my mother came in, and, looking upon me, exclaimed: “, you are better.” My speech returning just at that instant, I replied; “yes, mother, the Lord will let me live, if I am faithful to the promise which I made him, to be a comfort to my mother, my, and my children.
I continued to gain strength until I became quite well, as to my bodily health; but my mind was considerably disquieted— it was wholly occupied upon the subject of religion. As soon as I was able I made all dilligence in endeavoring to find some one, who was capable of instructing me, more perfectly, in the way of life and salvation: , Among others, I visited one Deacon Davis [p. 40]
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