Letter from Caroline Youngs Adams, circa 15 January 1843

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to the comfort of her husband, this is the firss time in my life that I have had the least cause to think sutch a thing of him he has always bin to me a kind devoted pr[e]vious to my coming into this my helth has bin poor he has never spar[e]d no expence nor pains to improve my helth or add to my comfort, I know what his man[n]er of life has bin sins [since] I have bin his wife and that has bin 11 years, in his business he has always had girls in his imploy somtimes 30 or mor and somtimes not more [than] 4 or 5 and he co[n]stantly with them, and girls to[o] far superior to the one I have aluded to in this letter, and he has never bin the man to take the least liberty with them, he has never bin a previous to his going man that has bin particularly fond of female company I really <​think​> he has injoyed the society more man more than femails, and when he left home for deeply and keanly did I feal the los of his society he was the onley person on this erth that I could express my fealings to, <​to​> his keeping had <​I​> commited my happiness as it regards this world, and my only desire and prayr has bin that the Lord would make him a faithful in his chirch and when I look back on what has pased in the last 2 weaks it appear like a horrid dream congered [conjured] up from the regions of darkness to hurry me to my grave and it all Dear Brother I cannot express my fealings but pray do not think I have writ[t]en to you with the least hard fealing toward my the Lord k[n]ows I have not, knowing is [it] is your privaleg to inquire of the Lord and know for <​a​> certenty wheather <​he​> is gilty of what I suspect him or not has induced me to write to <​you​> fealing a[t] the same time that a certenty of his . . . . (I cannot write the word) cannot produce a worse state of fealing than I now experence, and if it is so he certinly is not a fit man to minister in the things of God for <​has​> [he] has declaird that the Child is not his and says [p. 5]
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to the comfort of her husband, this is the firss time in my life that I have had the least cause to think sutch a thing of him he has always bin to me a kind devoted previous to my coming into this my helth has bin poor he has never spared no expence nor pains to improve my helth or add to my comfort, I know what his manner of life has bin sins since I have bin his wife and that has bin 11 years, in his business he has always had girls in his imploy somtimes 30 or mor and somtimes not more than 4 or 5 and he constantly with them, and girls too far superior to the one I have aluded to in this letter, and he has never bin the man to take the least liberty with them, he has never bin a man that has bin particularly fond of female company I really think he has injoyed the society man more than femails, and when he left home for deeply and keanly did I feal the los of his society he was the onley person on this erth that I could express my fealings to, to his keeping had I commited my happiness as it regards this world, and my only desire and prayr has bin that the Lord would make him a faithful in his chirch and when I look back on what has pased in the last 2 weaks it appear like a horrid dream congered [conjured] up from the regions of darkness to hurry me to my grave Dear Brother I cannot express my fealings but pray do not think I have written to you with the least hard fealing toward my the Lord knows I have not, knowing is [it] is your privaleg to inquire of the Lord and know for a certenty wheather he is gilty of what I suspect him or not has induced me to write to you fealing at the same time that a certenty of his . . . . (I cannot write the word) cannot produce a worse state of fealing than I now experence, and if it is so he certinly is not a fit man to minister in the things of God for has he has declaird that the Child is not his and says [p. 5]
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