Letterbook 2

  • Source Note
  • Historical Introduction
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and why he has not done according to my instructions, God only knows. I do not feel to charge him with having done wrong, until I can investigate the matter and ascertain to a certainty where the fault lies. It may be that through sickness or disaster, this strange neglect has happened. I would to God the thing had not happened. When I read ’ letter I learned that he was dissatisfied. I thought that he meant to oppress me, and felt exceedingly mortified and sorrowful in the midst of affliction, to think that he should distrust me for a moment, that I would not do all that was within my power. But upon having an explanation of the whole matter, my feelings are changed; and I think that you all have had cause for complaining. But you will, in the magnanimity of your good feeling, certainly not blame me, when you find that I have discharged an honorable duty on my part. I regret exceedingly, that I did not know some time since what I now know, that I might have made another effort before it got so late. Cold weather is now rolling in upon us.— I have been confined here this season by sickness & various other things that were beyond my control, such as having been demanded by the of of the of this , and he not having moral courage enough to resist the demand, althoug[h] it was founded in injustice and cruelty. I accordingly was taken prisoner; and they put me to some ten or eleven hundred dollars expense and trouble, such as lawyers’ fees, Witnesses &c. &c.— before I could be redeemed from under the difficulty. But I am now clear of them once more, and now in contemplating the face of the whole subject, I find that I am under the necessity of asking a little further indulgence, say till next Spring, so that I may be enabled to recover myself; and then if God will and spares my life, and gives me power to do so, I will come in person to your Country, & will never cease till my labours until the whole matter is completely adjusted to the full satisfaction of all of you. [p. 210]
and why he has not done according to my instructions, God only knows. I do not feel to charge him with having done wrong, until I can investigate the matter and ascertain to a certainty where the fault lies. It may be that through sickness or disaster, this strange neglect has happened. I would to God the thing had not happened. When I read ’ letter I learned that he was dissatisfied. I thought that he meant to oppress me, and felt exceedingly mortified and sorrowful in the midst of affliction, to think that he should distrust me for a moment, that I would not do all that was within my power. But upon having an explanation of the whole matter, my feelings are changed; and I think that you all have had cause for complaining. But you will, in the magnanimity of your good feeling, certainly not blame me, when you find that I have discharged an honorable duty on my part. I regret exceedingly, that I did not know some time since what I now know, that I might have made another effort before it got so late. Cold weather is now rolling in upon us.— I have been confined here this season by sickness & various other things that were beyond my control, such as having been demanded by the of of the of this , and he not having moral courage enough to resist the demand, although it was founded in injustice and cruelty. I accordingly was taken prisoner; and they put me to some ten or eleven hundred dollars expense and trouble, such as lawyers’ fees, Witnesses &c. &c.— before I could be redeemed from under the difficulty. But I am now clear of them once more, and now in contemplating the face of the whole subject, I find that I am under the necessity of asking a little further indulgence, say till next Spring, so that I may be enabled to recover myself; and then if God spares my life, and gives me power to do so, I will come in person to your Country, & will never cease my labours until the whole matter is completely adjusted to the full satisfaction of all of you. [p. 210]
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